A random update

I hope no one is reading. Just ranting.

I'm so busy with assignments! Finals is in another 7 days and I am kind of losing it. This is my last trimester and I want to make sure all ends well. I am freaking out with my design. I know it isn't up to par and I only have 1 week to fix it. I know I can do it. But I need more support. I always do.

BTW, my bf just caught me blogging =O Heh, so cute.

I'm going to Sydney for holiday in less than a month! Initially my uni friends and I were thinking about Tasmania or New Zealand but some didn't want to go, and the air ticket to Christchurch was kind of pricey. My bf is going to Perth soon though. And I have some hush hush birthday plans for him which I haven't quite properly planned yet. It's his first birthday together with me and I wanted to make an impression. I think I have quite some time till then for me to come out with a decent idea.

There is so much going on in my mind and it's kinda too much to keep ranting. I was just thinking maybe I should close this blog to private reader only. Hmm... Maybe I should.

Merdeka Party @ Billboard with Mizz Nina!

It's Merdeka soon! And I will be partying away at Billboard at Melbourne on Merdeka eve. Hope it's going to be all fun! Am looking forward to it. But sigh, I do not have any heels to go with my dress and no, I am not going to wear my boots to club! I guess I will need to shop for one tomorrow or something...

iPhone 4 fever

iPhone 4 was released few days ago and most of my friends are getting theirs! Now I kinda regret, for getting my iPhone soooo early! I wonder if I can upgrade my iPhone 3gs to 4. I'll give Vodafone a call tomorrow :D

Henry's iPhone 4

such a beauty

Emo

Warning: Bullshit approaching. Don't read, unless you have nothing else better to do.

I'm not happy, and instead of pointing finger at others, shouting "You don't understand me!" I think maybe the problem could be that I am not easy to understand. Heck, I don't even understand myself. I'm feeling so down now. I don't know... Maybe I'm stressed from packing.

I'm so so tired when people kept asking me "Have you finished your assignment? Have you finished packing, have you done this? Have you done that? Why are you so slow?" Arghhh.. I feel like taking something and stuff their mouth. I know I know... People nag because they care. But please... I'm so tired of nags. I had to put up a smile and act like I'm attentive, when inside me, I'm actually fighting to say PLEASE STOP NAGGING! URGHHHHHH. This is when I wish that I'm alone, no one to bug me.

Stop asking me out for movies when I have something more important to do. Like packing and compiling my portfolio. Not spending enough time with you already made me guilty. Please don't make me feel worse by rejecting your invites. Please at least understand my priorities and maybe my feelings. I have so much going on, I wish people can be more understanding towards my needs.

Sigh.. I'm leaving tomorrow... Can't I leave happily?

Tanjobi omedeto

It's another year, and I'm older by a year.

I spent half of the morning playing the last chapter of Resident Evil 5 with Carrot. Then, we headed to The Spring to have my birthday lunch at The Gasoline Cafe but it was full so we moved to Kim Bay. The food there is below satisfaction and a bit pricey as well. Carrot bought me chocolate cheese cake from Secret Recipe. Yummy... :D

Bought a book at MPH for my dad for his birthday tomorrow and headed back to Carrot's place to continue Resident Evil 5.

I'm so tired... I have recurring flu-like symptom since October. I am tired and am wondering what is wrong. I want to get well soon.

Carrot cake randomness

Can't wait till Carrot's back tomorrow.

Friday

I just noticed that today is...


FRIDAY the 13th

New colour

I was thinking that this blog looks kinda boring since I've never changed my layout since a year ago when I started ranting here. I only realised that it really has been more than a year since I stop "multiply-ing" at multiply.com

I never intentionally wanted to stop blogging there. Funny... A year ago when I started my first post here, I never thought this blog would last a year, not to say more than that.

I guess I will try to keep up with it. Just some updates and stupid rants from time to time for you readers out there.

So yeah, enjoy the new colour scheme!

Are you fish?

Florence says: you donno amulet ahh 

Jonathan says: u mean the yellow paper with chinses writting 1? 

Florence says: yaa 

Jonathan says: tat 1 call amulet meh? 

Florence says: ... if not?! 

Florence says: talisman? 

Jonathan says: hahahaha 

Jonathan says: i don knw ma 

Florence says: you call it what 

Jonathan says: lauzy fish

What a day

Today, someone mocked me at facebook. A stranger.

He said.. 这就是老马送给我们的东西...不会华文的华人

Basically he meant that "This is what Mahathir has given us, chinese who can't read chinese"

I'm fuming right now.

It will be back

This place was left to rot for months! I'll update soon enough. Till then...

My sad stomach

Just yesterday, I was so greedy that I grabbed a cold pizza and stuffed into my mouth... And now, I have an upset stomach.

Darn, this is what you get from gluttony.

Puzzled Box Home?

You're not supposed to feel puzzled when you enter the house. ^^

Actually, our lecturer wanted us to work on a PUZZLE Box House but I'm pretty much puzzled now. I was hoping that I can come out with better design, or at least think outside the box or something. Ah... the whole thing is so... boxy.

Anyways, I'm suppose to be rushing my work now since submission is on Saturday = =

Still, I'm here procrastinating. I have been waking up at 4am every weekend for 3 months now... I am so envious my classmates who sleep till 830, get up shower and attend class at 9. I had to help my mum work early morning, which means I had to sacrifice my sleep and time in the morning for assignments, and rush to college, barely on time. Sigh... I'm exhausted, honestly. Yet, I've been such obedient daughter (I know I'm so guai... ^^).

Yeah, let's not side-track... I'm suppose to come out with a house that measures 3m X 3m X 3m (which is actually smaller than my room! T_T ) I'm practically squeezing everything inside. The toilet, shower, kitchen, living, dining, study, etc. I hope it works since I've playing with the Transformer Toy, hoping to see light from it. LOL. I think I am quite satisfied with the design at the moment. Now I need to work harder on the model and presentation board.

Pray for me... Hope my lecturer likes it as much as I do.

Tiredness

After sleeping for 7 hours, I woke up tired. Usually I will be all pumped up if I sleep for such long hours, but no... My back were aching, my throat felt dry. Must be the weather. I really dislike wet season.

• I can't drive my new shinny car out because I despise washing the mud off after that.
• I can't go shopping because I hate going out in the rain. 
• My laundry take days and lots of moonlight to dry.
• I celebrated my birthday in the rain and I hate it.
• It gets really cold in the night.
• I dislike the thought of celebrating christmas when it is raining as well.
• And I think I'm going down with flu soon.

I shall blame the weather for making me tired like this. I used to watch lots of dramas and animes during my holiday but now gah... Tired. I just want to do nothing.

Oh yea, I have been reading John Grisham's The Partner. It is really good! Better than his The Client. But oh, Carrot promised to being me to grab some more of his books today.

I have no program for christmas! Or for eve. Carrot suggested movie and dinner at Carvery. It seems like I have better celebration last year! For both christmas and birthday. Maybe Carrot is really reaching an age where they are settling down and stop partying. Oh no... Ah Phek-ness. Sigh.

I wish Lissa and people are back. At least we will enjoy some crap chats at Bing or something. Oh Lissa and people... Hurry back. I noticed that I am never good at asking my friends out for drink. It's always Lissa. See, I'm so dependant on her. Even wanting a drink, I depend on her. Le sigh... Lissa... Come back soon...

Oh, I received a nicely wrapped present from Lissa! Suddenly I feel intimidated because I did not wrap her present as nice as she wrapped mine. But thank you Lissa! I love it! 

Festive seasons are boring nowadays... T_T

LOOKIE!

When I was posting my previous birthday post I noticed something really important...

My arms are muscular!

Okay, just random rants. LOL

Girl or Car?

Guys out there...

Which do you love more?

Your girl or your car.

Opinion please...

I'm feeling sick

It's almost 4 in the morning and I'm still rushing to finish my report after sitting in front of the PC for more than 20 hours.

My stomach is acting up and I feel so nauseated. It must be from the excessive eating of unclean food for the past few meals. I realized that I cannot tolerate oily food anymore. I had mixed grill at Mr. Ho the night before and it was so oily that I can't help going to the washroom so many times today. Then I had chicken nuggets and fillet-o-fish just now. I think fillet-o-fish was fine. The nugget was too oily, that's I feel so nauseated now. I must stick to my green salad and fruits diet soon before I turn into some green vomiting monster. I feel like shit. I wanna cry. I want to finish this damn report and study for tomorrow's exam. But I'm not feeling well... Can I postpone my exam? T_T

Help me...

D. Gray Man

I so want to get my hands on Lenalee's exorcist costume! It's so cool... *too bad I'm not involved in cosplay*

Wish I have the body to wear such sexy costume though. Sigh...

Oxymoron!

It's 3.30 in the morning now and as usual, I'm procrastinating again.

I was Tadao Ando'ing' a minute ago and I noticed something about him. I shall share my opinion of him here...

He is actually a really complicated guy, but he strives for simplicity. And thus, he claims that he is simple guy by using lots of geometrical plans to create his "spiritual space". (Sounds like me, I guess. Simple yet complicated. *sigh*)

Yay, paradox. Just like Tadao. He want his space to come between fictive and reality. Make it spiritual and highly symbolic.

Oh Tadao, I have fallen in love with you... Because you are so like me (or I claimed to be)

Let's build a home together, shall we? (*laughs* literally)

Stop finding reasons

It has been ages since I last posted. This will be a quick one. And most probably the first post that I write about my personal thoughts and feelings.

People called me kiasu, workaholic, or which ever names that lie between that, though it does not bothers me, the simple truth about me is that, I'm a perfectionist. Blame Sagittarius, blame my personality. I can't change it. And I don't want to. I am a proud Sagittarian.

Being someone who always want things go her way, sometimes, what I achieved, is not something that easy to satisfy my huge appetite. I aimed too high and disappointments are always there.

Not only that I am always disappointed with myself, I found out that I let down those around me as well. Sometimes the guilt is so overwhelming that I wish to turn back time and patch up on things that I could improve on. I really dislike this part of me. I dislike being regretful.

Just like any other teenagers, there are times that I just wish to take a break and be "normal" for a bit. Normal as in, well, let's take things easy and go with the flow. Why push yourself so hard? Life is short. Stop and smell the flowers.

Which I did. And all that I get from being carefree (a little) is just regrets, disappointments and frustrations. I want to make things work again and again, strive for the best. After all, this is the real spirit in me. The perfectionist, the kiasu fella.

Let me advise you, readers. The more you want something to work and go your way, the worse it will become. Just do what you can, you never know when it's already brilliant. Don't think too hard.

Because I think too much, think too hard, tried too much, tried too hard, I expect from myself too much and aimed too high, well, it can be good or otherwise. Don't be a Saggitarian like me. You will only be discontented with life.

Be happy