Ant

You trampled on me like I am just an ant. You don't deserve a great person like me. You don't. Don't cry over spilled milk.

Goodbye Carrot

I haven't written anything here for ages... I am back to Kuching and finally manage to take some time to blog. I finally get over with jet-lag! I have 4 months of holiday till my next semester starts.

This post will be the last post regarding Carrot. Our 2 years relationship ended few months back when I was in Australia. I don't know what to write here... I just feel like posting something here to mark that and one day when I read back my entries... At least I posted something when it ended, ya know? Nothing much to write about really. The "no-feeling" state towards him has been there for the past few months. I am not sad, nor angry... Just... Numb. I guess I am moving on pretty well. I hope he will be able to do the same. If he is ever reading this, I just wish him to know that it has been an awesome 2 years. I'm sorry I fall out of love, and thank you for being there for me all these while. And the lovely white roses that you finally get me. Sorry, but it's just too late.

I guess that's about it... Ja ne, Carrot- chan. May you find a great girl soon. :D

Emo

Warning: Bullshit approaching. Don't read, unless you have nothing else better to do.

I'm not happy, and instead of pointing finger at others, shouting "You don't understand me!" I think maybe the problem could be that I am not easy to understand. Heck, I don't even understand myself. I'm feeling so down now. I don't know... Maybe I'm stressed from packing.

I'm so so tired when people kept asking me "Have you finished your assignment? Have you finished packing, have you done this? Have you done that? Why are you so slow?" Arghhh.. I feel like taking something and stuff their mouth. I know I know... People nag because they care. But please... I'm so tired of nags. I had to put up a smile and act like I'm attentive, when inside me, I'm actually fighting to say PLEASE STOP NAGGING! URGHHHHHH. This is when I wish that I'm alone, no one to bug me.

Stop asking me out for movies when I have something more important to do. Like packing and compiling my portfolio. Not spending enough time with you already made me guilty. Please don't make me feel worse by rejecting your invites. Please at least understand my priorities and maybe my feelings. I have so much going on, I wish people can be more understanding towards my needs.

Sigh.. I'm leaving tomorrow... Can't I leave happily?

Carrot cake randomness

Can't wait till Carrot's back tomorrow.

Fish & Chips

It was a surprise invitation from my old choir friends for a "fish and chips" dinner. I have been not feeling too well for the last few days and I thought, fried food isn't too good for me. Which, of course, isn't good, because after dinner, I went to look for Carrot, and I quarreled with him.

Now that I think back, I was being so silly and sensitive. I don't know why. It could be the flu, or the stress, or the aunty's visit, or the fish and chips. I reckon it's the food. Must be the food.

Sigh, I feel so bad, I made a apology card for him.

Silly Flo..

Give me a good reason

I cannot tolerate dishonesty. There is never a good reason to lie. It comes one after another, so don't do it. You promised, you'd never. I gave you enough trust to never question your actions.

I can't face you. Not now...

Who knows when

Goodbye my hornet

Dedicated to a car, which I had so much feelings towards to... My baby's yellow hornet, at least that's what I nicknamed it.


Goodbye sweetheart, be good to the new owner.

Yes, I actually cried, sending it off :(