You are pissing me off

I don't know if I am over-sensitive or... it's just him. Being friends with your ex isn't just as easy as it sounds and I definitely do not like the idea of it now because it's so difficult! Everything he said to me is like, he was trying to pick a fight.

"...Whatever, forget it..."
"...End of conversation. Bye..."
"...The food must taste better since it isn't with me..."
etc...

Well, if we were fighting, and he said those words, it's perfectly understandable. But we are at a term that we are just friends, having normal conversation. I don't see how these words can come in. Am I just over-sensitive or... it's just him?

Goodbye Carrot

I haven't written anything here for ages... I am back to Kuching and finally manage to take some time to blog. I finally get over with jet-lag! I have 4 months of holiday till my next semester starts.

This post will be the last post regarding Carrot. Our 2 years relationship ended few months back when I was in Australia. I don't know what to write here... I just feel like posting something here to mark that and one day when I read back my entries... At least I posted something when it ended, ya know? Nothing much to write about really. The "no-feeling" state towards him has been there for the past few months. I am not sad, nor angry... Just... Numb. I guess I am moving on pretty well. I hope he will be able to do the same. If he is ever reading this, I just wish him to know that it has been an awesome 2 years. I'm sorry I fall out of love, and thank you for being there for me all these while. And the lovely white roses that you finally get me. Sorry, but it's just too late.

I guess that's about it... Ja ne, Carrot- chan. May you find a great girl soon. :D

Fish & Chips

It was a surprise invitation from my old choir friends for a "fish and chips" dinner. I have been not feeling too well for the last few days and I thought, fried food isn't too good for me. Which, of course, isn't good, because after dinner, I went to look for Carrot, and I quarreled with him.

Now that I think back, I was being so silly and sensitive. I don't know why. It could be the flu, or the stress, or the aunty's visit, or the fish and chips. I reckon it's the food. Must be the food.

Sigh, I feel so bad, I made a apology card for him.

Silly Flo..

MJ, The King of Pop

I had an awesome night out with Carrot tonight. Even though he attended a seminar for one full day, he still made time to bring me out for a sumptuous japanese dinner at Ten Ichi. We then headed back to his place so that he can take a nice shower after such long day. Well, I think he rushed his shower to play Resident Evil on PS3 with me, that he banged his foot on the door in the process. Haha! Poor thing.

After gaming, we went to MBO to catch MJ's This Is It! Man, it was awesome! I'm still high from it... From the love of MJ... I love him so much. So much enthusiasm, so much love and talent. I was watching in awe the whole time and was clapping every time he finished his great performance. Someone slept behind me and was snoring half of the time! Shame on him.

Ever since his passing, I've not written any dedication for him. This will be the one, for Michael. For the love he brought, for the music, for the talent, the enthusiasm.

We'll miss you, Michael, forever.

Thanks, dear... for such a wonderful night out. I appreciate it... :)